It might sound cliche, but I don't think I know who I am. I've always had certain things to fall back on: family, religion, interests. My family is still there but getting further away, my religion is still a big part of my life but it brings its own questions, and I don't know what I really want. I can make a list of facts about me: I like Country music. I have brown hair. I like horseback riding. I'm a sucker for chick flicks. So who does that make me? I have some big "growing up" decisions to make in the next few months and I'm having a hard time with it. It seems that what I choose will make me who I'm going to be. I guess what I can't figure out is who I want that to be.
I've never been one to just know what I want and go for it. I would much rather let someone else make the decisions. I'm just one to go along for the ride. I can't even figure out what I want without somebody else talking me into it. Do you ever feel that way? Like everything you have been doing is just because it was, or wasn't, expected of you, not because you actually wanted it. But if that is how I have been living then what do I actually want?
Friday, July 8, 2011
Monday, July 4, 2011
One
So...blogging. Well here I am. Chrissi-twenty year old, small town girl. I have been thinking about starting a blog for a while. It's a fun idea and I can tell you this: this will be the most random blog anyone will never read. I like writing. I'm wondering about going into English except wow is English class boring. I guess I don't know what I'll be, or who. It's all about the journey.
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